Padre Island National Seashore was amazing. We did not get to drive the 50 plus miles of beach but I wish we had four wheel drive. We camped here and the sunset and sunrises were amazing.� They had just completed a controlled burn so there was a slight smell and it wasn't as pretty as it could have been. I had to come to Corpus Christie to shoot a wedding.
Padre Island National Seashore is the world's largest barrier island. It is quiet here and there is some good fishing. Me and the girls dove into the salty waters to pull sand dollars from the sandy ocean floor. While Stephen and Halley were fishing a shark came right up and swam by. Halley was not to keen on this but I bet it was amazing to see. We missed it because me and Jen were shooting a wedding.
They have a program for sea turtles here and you can see them nesting on the beaches. Watch for dolphins here as well. Five stars. I loved it. You have to pass through a ton of cameras when entering but the fees are minimal.
well--it's day four (Saturday)�that I have been out of the hospital. Today was a better day. I woke up with my blood sugar good.� I lost 37 pounds so far. Today my dad and I went to the flea market and when driving...no one was on the road. The stupid cost of gas is crazy. No one was at the flea market and not so many venders.� I got tired very quick but it was nice. Watched some movies tonight and that was about the most of my day.� My mood is still depressed.� I still cant eat much. I tired some ground meat in a taco.� I miss food.� I had to think back to when I got addicted to food. I think I pin pointed it.� I never knew how much food was a big part of my life.� At least I will be saving money on not eating out as much as I have. Ok...I am tired and want to try to sleep. Which is a joke. I keep waking up in a cold sweat and then I have to get up and change. I can't take a nap and I have no idea how I can be depressed and not sleeping.� I don't function well without lots of sleep. Well.... off I go...
发嗲和幸福感
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我和敦敦发现, 近期小猫 ‘乐肥’, 喜欢发嗲. 当他发现你是可以发嗲的对象, 他会走到你面前，先伸个长长的懒腰, 然后一扭身扑通地躺在你眼前, 乐肥块头大, 所以总是会发出很大的动静, 接下来前后左右地扭曲翻动身体, 在这个过程中乐肥用它那双洼绿的眼睛始终深情款款地看着你 ( I am ready for a pat.)。 发嗲的水平高超到不可抗拒，人们常常忍不住轻轻地拍它. 乐肥从整个过程中获取了极大的幸福感。
人何尝不是如此，当信任和情感发展到相当的程度，各种形式的发嗲就是自然的了。能发嗲是一种幸福，真正的幸福感是集安全，快乐，自由等的一个可期待长期综合感受。
人们追求各种生活幸福感，其中包括追求发嗲的机会，简言之，可以发嗲的女人和男人大猫和小狗们都算是幸福的。
As I've been digger deeper into my relationship with God, almost starting over, I've been exploring how I can just walk with Him in a friendship. I feel like the last 20 or so years have been knowing Him as God and serving Him as a servant. But it's long overdue - He wants me to become His friend.
But what does that mean? What does that look like? Well, it's less academic. Less based on knowledge and intellect, and probably more on the heart - my weak spot.
I used to be able to hear His voice better, but maybe better as a servant. Maybe getting the right information to do the job right, but that's all kind of dried up as God pushes me into this transition. Now I think He wants to speak as a friend, but I don't know how to listen like one, and it's like learning another language!
So he's staring to give me some keys now. I think that being centred on Him is the key. Kind of locking on is a big part of it. So this is why reading His word and prayer at the start of the day is important. Mediation, breathing, speaking in tongues, anything to raise God-consciousness to the congitive level to centre our thoughts, feelings,�ideas, rumblings on Him. It's the decency we would extend to any friend. You wouldn't go for lunch with a friend and read the paper. You�would look them in the eye and engage right? So centering on God is looking Him in the eye at the start of the day, and saying�today I'm going to walk with you, listen to you�and be your friend.�
And I love the idea of checking in with God every so often "Lord what do you want to say right now? Lord what are you leading me to do right now? What do you want to show me about this?"� "What are your thoughts?"
Stilling is the other part. Be still and know. God was in the still small voice. It's having a still core. This is where peace is so critical. And if I don't have it, it's going to crowd out God's voice, because while he is persistent, he doesn't shout. That is, he might not get through today, but he will get through, because he loves me. But it's better to be still. Only the still get to know him as a friend. When we stop, there should be silence in our core. If there's buzz, or static, then it's not good. Maybe just stop every now and then and listen. If it sounds like the beach and it's clear and soft, great. You're poised to listen. If it sounds like peak hour, might need to go back to centering, or deal with the issue thats causing the rumbling.
The other thing about God being my friend, is that I need to change my expectation of what he will talk to me about. He's not just going to give me orders, he's going to talk to me about stuff that interests Him, and stuff that interests me.
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I paid for some coaching years agon with a gentleman by the name of James Mapes.� I had seen James while in Cancun and he lived so near to me at the time, I thought it would be great if I could coach with him.�
We met a few times and I had some really neat breakthroughs.�� The one thing he gave me as an everlasting gift was an expression.�
Isn't that interesting?
He encouraged me to carry it with me and whenever I was able, use it.�� So, when I found myself using langauge in a certain, or predjudices surfaced, even when anger or other weird emotions popped up, I would think and actually say, "Isn't that interesting".�
Years later it still serves me.� I'll admit that soemtimes life goes by incredibilly fast and I forget to stop and think, I just react.� But more often than not anymore I am able to briefly pause and think, isn't that interesting.��
So, what's eating away at you from the inside, what causes you to react and not act?
Ever have the stars align and then your internal compass tries to sabotage that?
I had the stars from 6 months of work align in the last 48 hours and I feel my body and my constitution objecting.� The cool thing about personal growth and self awareness is I recognize that.� I am able to reject the emotions and am able to work through it.
It's actually a pretty cool breakthrough.� Before I would have chucked it up to just being sick.� Now I knwo it's always something underlyying.
I napped twice to shake the physical effects and i have eaten well and drank lots of fluids and i am managing to tackle the day.
Big night tonight and big day tomorrow.� I am excited to meet new people and excited we can help each other change the world.
Dreams come less vividly when I sleep lightly.� I had been sleeping deeply of late and my dreams are "Living Color", WILD!!!!
Kids are driving Nancy crazy on Summer vacation.� It's interesting how much time we spend with our kids.� Our parents never spent this much time with any of us.
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